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| Hmmm |
| 08.01.05 (9:13 pm) |
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Well lets see. This week on As Clovis turns, not much has changed. Have had a few really good laughs at the stupidity of other people. Still looking for a full time job. But at least I am doing one thing right, I am going back to college this fall and will be able to graduate with 2 associate degrees in the spring, and I'll only be 23. Can't beat that with a wet noodle. Well you could I guess, but who would want to?
Anway, met a great guy, we talked for a few hours. Unfortunately he no longer lives here, but he is still nice to talk to. Males are not exactly on my list of things to get involved with right now, but it's nice to have a fresh perspective now and again. Oh well, that's about all I can think of for now. Will write more later.
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| Ignorance is bliss |
| 07.14.05 (9:06 am) |
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Since ignorance is supposed to be bliss, then why can we not all just be ignorant? That may make my life easier, but I cannot accept the thought of being ignorant. Ignoring people on the other hand is something that I am learning to be very, very good at. It is easier to ignore the majority of people and therfore ignore the drama that they try to introduce into life. I refuse to live a soap opera, and that is what most of the people in this town want their lives to be. Perhaps that is why I do not talk to that many people anymore? I have concluded that for the time being I will just stay in my bubble and let life on the outside play it's games. The only thing that I continue to do is speak with the few friends that I keep close to me, continue looking for work in this damned town, and try to get back into college this fall. Hopefully I will be able to be successful in my ventures at this time.
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| An afterthought |
| 06.24.05 (5:28 am) |
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This is posted in the comments of one of my posts by another user. I thought it was fitting to be on the big screen here lol.
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| All the Drama |
| 06.24.05 (5:22 am) |
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Why do people bring so much drama? All these people causing all this drama is getting really old, you would think that they are 2 year olds with all the shit they do. It's funny how I finally start being sociable again, and all this drama gets started up. I guess I should be used to it by now, but sometimes I'd rather just hide in my little house and not deal with it, cause it's not really my problem until other people make it my problem. Oh well, maybe one day the whole world will grow up. LOL not bloody likely.
I'm still doing the job search thing, but I have some good prospects right now, just hate the waiting game. I know that I will obtain empolyment soon, I just get tired of waiting for 'company' decisions to be made. Well enough of my rambling for now.
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| Interesting |
| 06.13.05 (8:50 am) |
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Life gets more and more interesting as the days go by. I had to deal with my ex this weekend, and he drove 3 hours to get the stuff out of his car, not his car like he was supposed to, and to parade his new fiance in front of me. I just wanted to slap him or something for being so stupid. Funny isn't it? He thinks I hate him, which is amusing, I really don't I was just mad for a time because too much shit was happening all at once. He's young and dumb, maybe he'll learn one day.
On another note, I was called a moocher because I actually accept my father's help. Are all children moochers then? Since all people (for the most part) have no qualms about accepting help from their parents, are all people mooches? Anyone that actually knows me, knows that I always try to help my Dad out with any jobs or anything that I can actually do for him, he tries to help me out, and I always ask if he's sure or if he can afford it. I told my Dad what was said and he did not look too happy about it, but he knows the situation and he's a big boy so he can make his own choices. I know that I wasn't the best kid around, but I see now the mistakes that I have made and I have to live with them, we all have to live with the mistakes of our youth. I try to at least atone for them and show that I am a good person, even though there are quite a few people out there who would swear on their lives that I'm a bitch and nothing else. Sometimes I am, but only to people who deserve to be treated that way. Oh well, things will sort themselves out eventually. At least I know, and the people that count know that blood is thicker than water.
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| Tomorrow is the day, and it never comes |
| 06.08.05 (9:31 am) |
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I have a pre-interview for a job today, and the real interview tomorrow. I hope that something comes of it. I have been to several interviews and they all say that I present myself well, but they find other people for the jobs. Someday things have to get better right? I just wonder sometimes if there is a someday. For an update, still have no life, only visit a few friends here and there. Don't want to be that social lately. Just want to sit at home and work on things. My house is cleaner than it's been since I moved back, I just want things to be nice and orderly somewhere in my life. I've been sewing some outfits for the SCA trying to at least get some garb in stock for the events that are coming up just in case I actually have the money to go. Well that's it for now, will post more later.
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| Opinions |
| 05.31.05 (7:36 pm) |
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I have to say that I stick to what I said in my last entry. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and I have stated mine. I managed to piss people off with it, but oh well. You know I didn't even start any shit when I was called a backstabber, a liar, or the many other things that were said about me. I guess it is supposed to be okay for someone else to have their opinions and state them in writing but not me. If you don't like what I write for the world to see, simply don't read it. We have the right to speak freely and state our opinions, I think I stated mine as nicely as possible from my point of view. To quote an interesting line written about me that seems to apply here "Well one of these days she will get her comuppance and I am gonna enjoy it."
Enjoy all who read.
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| Blah |
| 05.30.05 (12:55 pm) |
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As life turns it gets more interesting. My Dad finally kicked out the mooches that have been living with him forever now. I'm proud that he finally got up the nerve to do it. These people have been living with him and basically bleeding him dry of everything that he has. He is so far in debt because of them it isn't funny. I know he is in a little bit of debt because of me, but I am trying to pay him back as often as I can. These people need to learn to live on their own and not depend on someone else to do everything for them, and now maybe it will happen. I know it hurt my Dad to kick them out, but hopefully he will see the good in the situation and realize that he only did what had to be done.
On a lighter note, I finally quit my job at the restaurant. I have another job lined up and hopefully will start tomorrow. I am so tired of food service that it's not even funny. My old boss was pissed when I quit, but oh well, life goes on.
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| Another Day |
| 05.23.05 (7:51 pm) |
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I'm tired and sore from working on a roof yesterday, but it helps pay the rent. I got to hear a really good singer, we have been working on his house. His name is Rodney Green. He has helped on movies, writes music, and hangs out with the Fireballs. He has great music, and he played for us today. He also gave me one of his CD's and autographed it for me.
One another note, one of the guys I worked with is irritating me. He keeps flirting and making suggestive comments. He seems like he would be fun to get together with for a few days or so, but today one of my friends showed up and he started kinda flirting with her, but still flirting with me. Very irritating. Not my friends fault, she's not interested, but it kind of got to me. I told him to quit teasing me and he said that anticipation leads to good things. I told him only if there is something to anticipate. He didn't know what to say to that one. Oh well, if it happens, it happens, if not then not.
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| Quiz, What kind of girl I am |
| 05.22.05 (9:05 pm) |
 You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shyat times but friendly, and you are never weak and always independent. You are incredibly intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a talent for many things (sports, music, art). You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy the simple things. Like hanging out with friends and watching movies at home. But you're sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just can't seem to break into the crowd and be noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing and speak out when you have more to say. Don't hide behind your books and sports and computer, get out there and get noticed. You also have deep desires in life and feel vunerable and alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What helps me to express feelings and dreams that I can't say to people, is through my writting. Maybe you should try.
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| hmmmm |
| 05.21.05 (12:26 pm) |
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I went to a wedding yesterday, it was beautiful. The bride was gorgeous, and the groom was very handsome. The reception was fun and I am happy for them both. To find love is very special indeed. I can just hope that I will find a true love in my life. Someone that can handle me in the good times and the bad times. I thought I was in love once, and I was in a sense. But it proved that he could not handle me in the bad times of my life. Oh well. I can hope that some day someone will come along who can love me for me, and understand what I go through.
I'm looking for a new job, fun fun. I hope to get something soon though. I missed almost this whole week of work because I have been sick. I am wondering if she will send me home tonight because I'm still having trouble breathing and coughing a lot. Oh well. I'll get better soon.
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| Life in the little city |
| 05.14.05 (10:53 am) |
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Well, I'm down to working one job which is okay, but is only part-time. To get state assistance I have to look for another job, which will be full-time and I will no longer qualify for the state assistance. Odd isn't it? Oh well. I'm getting behind on some of my bills because $400 a month doesn't pay for much. I do what I can with what I have though. Almost got hospitalized the other week when I had a nervous breakdown in the doc's office, but at least they are getting me back on my meds. They want to give me pain pills for my back, but since I can't afford them I haven't gotten them. Oh well, such is my life. I found out that I can go back to school this fall and finish my degrees, which will be great. It will help me get a better job than the stuff I've been doing. I also found out that my ex is engaged to be married again. I'm okay with it for the most part, but it makes me wonder if our relationship even meant anything. Since we were still sorta together in March and he is already engaged to someone else, I feel like this last year was nothing. The only thing I got out of it was some experience, and some good friends. Live and learn right? One day I'll get this relationship thingy right, if not I have my pets and my friends.
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| Home |
| 03.27.05 (4:14 pm) |
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Well, I finally made it back on the internet. The move was long and tedious, and I'm still unpacking! I had a roommate for a little while, but things were not working very well. I have parents, I don't need another one. I think maybe it is because he was insecure and needed someone that he can take care of. I am not that kind of person and probably never will be. Oh well, such is life. I start my second job tomorrow, so life should be real interesting this next week, I don't know how well 2 jobs are going to work out, but I need the money. Bills and all that good fun junk again.
I must say though, it is good to be back in Clovis where things are my type of normal.
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| Moving |
| 03.02.05 (9:31 pm) |
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Well, this is going to be my last post for a little bit. I'm getting ready to move again. Going back home. Don't know how it's going to work out, but I will give it my best. Have to get a job and all that good fun stuff. Yay me, right? I will post again once I am back online. Blessed Be to all my friends.
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| Frustration |
| 02.01.05 (7:55 pm) |
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Well once again life shows that I am just not right for people. I started dating a guy on Sunday, and once he found out how old I was started freaking out. I called him tonight, and he decided to break up with me because I am so 'young'. This is sooo frustrating. He told me that he really does like me, and I have a wonderful personality, and that he is attracted to me, but he has a problem with my age. He hasn't even taken the time to get to know me yet, just made his decision on my age. Lovely isn't it? Well I guess I can hope that he will get to know me, and maybe regret his decision.
I actually got a job today. Will be working as a mechanic in a friend's brothers shop. Not bad, will make some decent money, and he is a pretty cool guy. That is my good news for the day.
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| Me and My Kiddos |
| 01.25.05 (10:17 pm) |
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Here are some piccys for anyone interested.
3 Of my Kiddos
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| LaLaLa |
| 01.22.05 (9:55 am) |
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Well I have managed to pull a few muscles in my back, because I was trying to get things done and noone wanted to help me move things. Now everyone is all you need to rest blah blah blah. Now that everything is done, they want to try to be helpful. Isn't that how it always goes? I have to try to get a job again, and it sucks because I had to go and get foods for my animals, and didn't even have enough money to get everything that they need. Oh well right? I'll just have to do what I can to get by.
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| Time to get in shape |
| 01.19.05 (10:54 am) |
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Well it looks like I got a new resolution for the year. I'm going to lose weight and get in a little better shape than what I am in. I've actually done really well so far, I've been working on the bedroom doing mudding and painting. Which of course involved moving everything in the room by myself because noone wanted to get off their lazy asses to help me. I am tempted to go back to the way I was just having sex and forgetting the whole relationships thing. Life was so much easier at that point in time.
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| Frustration |
| 01.16.05 (12:29 pm) |
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You know it is amazing how life works. Friday I lost my job because I wanted more work to do. Since I was a trainee, I guess I shouldn't want to actually put my training to use right? Oh well. Well that just contends with what I found out last night. Apparently I am too fat. Nice huh? This guy that I had sex with a couple of times feels bad that he slept with me because to him I am too fat. I just can't win for losing this week. I also should probably re-evaluate the kind of people that I find attractive. Such is my life. If they don't like me because I am a very independent person, then I am too damn fat for them.
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| Ahhh. |
| 01.08.05 (9:47 pm) |
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The past few days have been a bitch. Finally got my truck fixed. YAY! I have transportation again. I get to start work on Monday, which is totally cool for me. My ex is still being a weirdo because I am sleeping with someone else, and am happy about it. He seems worse everyday when I come home with a huge grin on my face. Horrible ain't I? LOL.
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| Funny isn't it |
| 01.06.05 (3:53 pm) |
Life is full of funny things isn't it. Last night my truck broke down, and my ex-fiance decided to call a friend to come and tow my truck home. He offered to pay the guy $50 to get his work's wrecker and come tow us. Today he calls me and asks if I can pay him the $50 back when I get my last paycheck from the job that fired me. Can you believe that? He offers to pay the guy, doesn't even ask me about it and then tells me that
Ron is coming to tow us home. Then he wants me to pay him back the money that he offered! Some people, I swear. This is the same person that couldn't pay his cell phone bill and asked me for money. Being the nice person that I am, I gave him $80 as a sort of a gift because he wasn't working and it was Christmas time. That will teach me to try to be nice to that little bastard.
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| Life |
| 01.03.05 (9:10 am) |
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Well, things have gotten more and more interesting every day. I spent the night at a friends house and the next day my ex asked me if I was going to be coming home. Guess I should give a little background huh? Well I live with my ex and his parents because I have no where else to go here as of yet. I am waiting to get another job so I can get the money to move out. Drama huh? I was asked this morning why I haven't been wearing our engagement ring like he asked me to, and I fibbed a bit. Told him the reason was that I got tired of the necklace irritating my neck. Oh well, he'll get over it. Good thing he doesn't quite know that I got some when I was gone lol.
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| Made it |
| 01.01.05 (3:10 pm) |
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Well I made it to the new year without killing anyone or anything. Yay me! Life is still a bitch, and there is not a shovel big enough for all the shit.
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| New Years |
| 12.31.04 (10:01 am) |
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Well the new year is just hours away and this one seems worse than the last. I just got a call from my work telling me that I am unemployed once again. If this is how the new year is going to go, perhaps I should just give up on everything. I know that I cannot do that because my pets rely on me and there is no one else that can provide for them the way that I do. They are my children and I must remember that. Right now life just sucks. I don't know anyone here that I can go out with to celebrate the new year since I just moved here a few months ago. Well perhaps I will just go and get me some sodas since I have a bottle of coconut rum, amaretto, and whiskey. I'll just celebrate my own way.
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| Life |
| 12.30.04 (5:14 pm) |
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Well from what I have seen so far we just all say whatever we want to say. My life sucks right now because I don't know if I still have a job or not. They are supposed to let me know soon. All because my truck broke down when I was on vacation and I missed two days of work. What the hell is up with that? I told them that I would bring in all of the receipts from all the work we had to do and that all of them were dated to show the time period that I was gone. Oh well. I'm trying to be tactful about getting my ex-fiance to sleep in a different room, and that's not working too well at all. Just because I'm trying not to hurt his feelings any more I haven't told him that he needs to sleep somewhere else.
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